There are words written on the chalkboard in my bedroom.
Give me grace for the moment.
These words are my daily prayer and not because of anything profound or because I am super holy.
In fact the opposite, I tend to get caught up in the future. In what is going to happen next year, this summer, three years from now. I plan. I already have my plans for Christmas break. I plan but I don’t stop there I also worry.
I worry too much about the future and I am learning (slowly) to let go of that.
I need to learn to live in the moment.
These moments lately have been some of the worst of my life. The I have shed, the suffering I have experienced. The struggle is real and right now I am living it.
Even small things can set me off right now. Things that I cannot plan for. All I can do is ask. Ask for grace for this moment. For right now. I do not know what will happen in the future.
All I have is the here and now and all I need is grace for the moment.